I don’t know about you, but I am always so hard on myself. No matter what I do or how long I work, there is always more to be done. There are goals I have not met and food I have not preserved and floors I have not cleaned and games I have not played with the kids. I beat myself up. I collapse into bed at night and promise myself that tomorrow I am going to work harder and get more done. Well, this morning I was slapped in the face with a piece of bacon, and it woke me up!
This morning alone, I have chicken stock cooking in the crock pot, from a chicken that we raised, with veggies that we grew. I have cured bacon for dinner and extra for breakfast, I took out ground pork to make sausage tonight, all from our pig raised on our land. I cheated for breakfast and had store bought greek yogurt, but I added home made strawberry sauce. Made a cup of coffee and added goats milk that I got out of the goat yesterday and pasteurized last night. Do you know that I had the audacity to be upset with myself because I did not make the yogurt from scratch and I added store bought sugar to my coffee instead of honey raised on the farm.
As homesteaders, we put so many expectations on ourselves. And I feel like I can say “we” because I have talked to many others that feel the same way. We feel like we have to do it all. Bake the bread, raise the animals, grow the veggies, hand make all our clothes and gifts, clean the house, homeschool our kids…. the list goes on and on. Why do we not take a step back and be proud of what we do and stop criticizing ourselves for what we don’t?
There is just not an easy answer to that question, I believe most people, no matter their profession, are hard on themselves. Homesteaders especially, it is not like we can call ourselves lazy, we raise most of our own food! Something inside of us strives to do more and to be better! What is the answer?
Right now, I am going to take a step back and be proud of what we have been able to do! I am proud of the fact that we raise almost all of our own meat. I am proud of the garden and the food that comes out of it. I am proud of these sore hands and back. Yes, I want to do more. But today I am going to be proud of what I have done, and not feel guilty about buying bagels for breakfast tomorrow, instead of making them from scratch. Take time today to be proud of yourself. You are an amazing person, no matter what you do, you do not have to always be perfect. Hold on to your drive and let that motivate you, but don’t put yourself down. Feeling good in what you have done is not a sign of weakness, but one of strength. Have a great day!